Why wait?

I over did it.

With food, not exercise. Unfortunately.

And…fortunately!

This holiday season, I kind of let myself slip a little. Okay, maybe more than a little.

But, you want to know what? I’m okay with it. And you want to know another thing? I think my husband is, too. The last few Christmas seasons, I’ve been, well, let’s just say, a little tense. Okay, maybe a little more than just a little. And truthfully, I think it had to do with food.

Both my husband and I commented this year about how much more calm I’ve been and how much less stressed I’ve been. I didn’t really think anything about it, until this morning – this really, really early morning, like 5 a.m. when I couldn’t sleep because my mind wouldn’t shut off. I came to the realization that the last couple of Christmases, I was so freaked out about gaining weight and not overeating that it kind of made me a little too tense and a little too stressed. And unfortunately, I took it out on my poor husband and my poor son. Sorry, guys!

I realized this year, that I didn’t want to be SO concerned about the food and just enjoy the holiday and you wanna know what? I am so glad I did. So what if I gained a little weight? I thoroughly enjoyed my Christmas Eve dinner. I mean, REALLY enjoyed it. But, who wouldn’t with these super delicious, super cheesy, super creamy, super awesome potatoes that my mom made – at, MY request!

Yummy goodness. (I know the picture isn’t the best and I know it doesn’t really do the potatoes any justice, but rest assured, they were THAT good!)

I also enjoyed the delicious ham, the delicious lettuce salad, the delicious strawberry tapioca pudding salad, the cookies, the caramel marshmallow treats, the chips and dip, the rice Krispie bars, the peanut brittle, the pretzel Rolo treats, the cheese and crackers, the wine and THE EVERYTHING else I am forgetting about.

But here’s the cool part. I don’t have to wait until January 1 to get back on track. I don’t have to wait until the New Year, the new day, the new whatever! I don’t have to wait for anything. I can get back on track TODAY. I get to make that decision. And that makes me happy. That makes me less stressed and able to enjoy the holiday season even more.

But now, here’s the biggest question…will I?

I am baackk!!!

Hello, dear readers. I’m back!

I have to apologize, as I have let “life” get in the way of my bloggin’. Sorry for the lack of updates. If it makes you feel any better, I’ve missed you all.

So, what has been eating up my time, you wonder? Well, let’s see…I can’t remember if I have talked about it here or not, but back in October, toward the end of the month, I became a leader with Weight Watchers and since that time, I have been adding more and more meetings to my schedule. I still also do receptionist work with WW, but have since been working more in the role of leader. In between all my meetings, I also still work as a reporter. My plan is to continue doing both as long as I can. I am not ready to give up my reporting job just yet…I have been doing it for about 11 and a half years. Crazy!

So, yes, like so many other people out there, I am working two jobs…a workaholic, I guess you can say. And so far, it has been working out…for the most part…I guess. Yes, it has been hectic, but has also been tons of fun! My family might be missing me or at least I hope they are because I am surely missing them. BUT, I am thoroughly enjoying my role as a Weight Watchers leader. I am hopeful that I can help my members just like my leader helped me. She played such an important role in my healthy living journey. I hope I am doing the same with my members. I think I am.

Currently, I lead meetings in Melrose (an at-work/community meeting), Sauk Centre (traditional meeting), Alexandria (at-work/community meeting) and Glenwood (traditional meeting). The difference between the at-work/community meetings and the traditional meeting is that with the at-work one, I go to a place of business and conduct a meeting there. I go to them instead of them coming to me, like with a traditional meeting. Right now, I am trying to build up my at-work/community meetings, although if there were more traditional meetings in the area that I could lead, I would take them as well. I now have to travel for my job, which has been an adventure. Winter has not been kind to me.

Other things that are/were eating up my time – like I have much more left after trying to work two jobs – was the holiday season. Dang, it just snuck right up on me this year. It was like BAM!, here it is and then BAM!, there it went. It was a whirlwind of a couple of weeks.

And, some unfortunate news within the last week or two, is my dad. His health is not the best right now and we are trying to get things figured out. Within a six-day period, he took two ambulance rides, visited three emergency rooms, had three cat scans of his head and stayed overnight in one of the hospitals for two days in a row. My dad has epilepsy and for some reason, on the morning of December 19, he had two seizures within two hours of each other. This was the morning after my family celebrated Christmas. He hit his head pretty good during the first one and really, really good during the second one. Did I mention he ended up with a concussion?The sucky part, as if all that wasn’t enough, was that we were surprised with a visit from my brother Al, who lives in Idaho. Oh wait, my brother’s visit wasn’t the sucky part. Let’s just say I am very, very glad we have pictures of our family Christmas because after two seizures and a concussion, my poor dad doesn’t remember a thing. His memory basically wiped out four whole days and parts of several others. But at least he knows who we all are. His long-term memory is there, but not always his short-term memory. We are praying it comes back.

At any rate, they – meaning the doctors – are trying to get him figured out. He now has an MRI scheduled for tomorrow, Thursday, December 30. Let’s just hope they find something out soon. It’s been a little rough…on my mom, me, the rest of the family and especially my dad. Feel free to send some prayers. We sure could use them.

So, yes, life has been a tad bit busy. And although my eating hasn’t been the best…boy, oh, boy could I share some stories about that!…my weight has been doing okay. Well, kind of. Okay, so I gained five pounds over Christmas, I have now lost two of those pounds and am back on track (sort of!). At one point before the holiday season, I actually hit 133 pounds point something, then I went up to 138 something and now, as of this morning, I am back to 136 something. I think it was 136.8 pounds. Not bad considering all the CRAP I’ve eaten lately. I was actually disappointed in myself, but I will save that for another time.

Just like so many others, I, too, will be making a New Year’s resolution. Although I don’t necessarily like to call it that. I am setting a goal and I am going to make an action plan for my goal, which is to start incorporating exercise back into my life. Oh, did I forget to mention that exercise has gone by the way side? Well, beginning January 2, I will start at it again. And I know I will stick to it….I have to….I have a 7K race on March 19 I am running! Yikes!

I wish all of you a very Happy New Year! I will leave you with a quote a friend of mine (she’s also a WW leader) posted on her Facebook page: “Most people are concerned about what they eat between Christmas and New Year’s, when in reality, they should be concerned with what they eat between New Year’s and Christmas.”

Note: If you feel like sending me an email, you can do so at confessionsofaformerfatgirl@gmail.com. I promise I will respond, but it may take me a couple of days. Also, you can find Confessions of a Former Fat Girl on Facebook…just click here.

Happy and proud

Merry Christmas Eve to all my dear readers!

Despite having a sinus infection (Yuck, by the way!), after I got up this morning and had my breakfast and visited with my parents a little, I actually worked out – for about an hour and 15 minutes. I was so proud of myself. I felt like crap, but after I worked out, I actually felt a little better. I could barely breathe, but I think all the sweating I did helped to get the infection out of my body. Or at least that’s what it felt like anyway.

I am off this week on my exercises because of my work schedule. I typically work out Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, but this week, I had to do it on Tuesday, today (Thursday) and then on Saturday. I am hoping to get back to my normal schedule next week, but we’ll have to see what happens. Work and the holidays kind of interfered, but at least I still did it!

So, why am I happy? Besides working out, it’s because my husband and I are hosting Christmas Eve at our house and so I am in charge of the meal! I love when I am in charge because then I can make things my way, which tends to be on the healthy side. So, what’s for dinner tonight? 

We are having ham, riced potatoes (there will be gravy for those who eat it), green beans, corn, Jell-O (sugar free) with Cool Whip (fat free) and in honor of my in-laws (who both recently passed away), my husband is trying his hand at making Lutefisk and my brother-in-law is going to try and make Swedish meatballs. And, I do have a tray of goodies – it is Christmas after all. 

I think we are going to have a great evening and a wonderful day tomorrow!

Again, I wish everyone a very happy and blessed Christmas. May all your Christmas wishes come true!

I know why I hate baking

Yesterday, after a crazy day, I ended up having to bake cookies for our Christmas cookie bake sale at work. First, I realized I don’t particularly care for baking. Second, I didn’t get home until after 8 p.m. Third, I was tired and crabby. Go figure, right.

But, it was my choice to bake. We decided to have a cookie bake sale at work to raise money for our local United Way. Even though I really, truly don’t like baking (it’s almost at hate status), I thought this was a great way to raise money for a wonderful cause. Plus, baking cookies for someone else meant that I wouldn’t have to have the cookies in the house and not have to worry about eating them. Good thinking, right? Not necessarily.

I found out the reason I hate baking. I love to eat the batter. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to eat batter. It doesn’t matter what I am whipping up – cake, cookies, doughnuts, bars, brownies – I love to eat the mix. Most often, I actually prefer the batter over the finished product. 

Last night I tried a new recipe, a fairly simple one at that. They were called Lemon Snowflakes. You take a lemon cake mix, one that has pudding in the mix, and mix it with two and a fourth (2 1/4) cups of Cool Whip (you realize these are two of my favorite things – cake and Cool Whip), one egg and some powdered sugar. You mix the dry cake mix with the Cool Whip and egg until they are mixed together really well. The mix is going to be extremely sticky. You then take a small teaspoonful of mix and drop it in the powdered sugar. Roll it around a little and then put it on an ungreased cookie sheet. Bake 10 to 12 minutes at 350º or until the cookies are slightly golden brown or the powdered sugar looks cracked.

I don’t think I even tried the cookies when they were done, but I probably ate enough batter to make at least a half dozen cookies!

One, I don’t think I will be baking anymore cookies anytime soon because, two, I felt really sick to my stomach and three, I had one heck of a toothache. Maybe now, my sweet tooth will be cured.

Doubtful!