A little apprehensive

This coming weekend, my hubby and I have a 10K race. I am feeling a little – okay, maybe a lot – anxious about it and for a few different reasons. Reasons, to some, that may sound weird or maybe even, do I dare say, childish?

First off, it is a race we have done before – it is for the Lakes Area Humane Society in Alexandria. However, the last couple of years, we have only done the 5K. For some reason, which now escapes me, we decided to sign up for the 10K. Why, oh why, did we do this?

Yes, I know, I have already completed a 10K so it’s not the distance that is necessarily scaring me. It’s the thought that there won’t be very many people participating in the 10K, which may mean I could come in last. Yep, that’s where the childish-ness may come in. I know that I am not the fastest runner and I am okay with that. I am just darn happy I can finish. However, finishing last in the town where I live when so many people might be watching, that’s another whole thing. I wouldn’t care if I came in last in our upcoming race in Fargo on October 8. It’s in Fargo. Nobody knows me. AND…..there are thousands of participants.

This is in Alexandria. People know me. There may be a hundred people running. UGH! That’s what’s freaking me out. I am almost regretting signing up for the 10K. I wish I would have just signed up for the 5K.

I know what you are probably thinking. “WHO CARES?” I know, right? But I can’t help it. It’s who I am. I don’t want to disappoint anyone. I have been trying to talk myself out of feeling this way for the last two weeks, but as the race gets closer and closer, it’s just not helping.

I know, I am going to be just fine. And who really gives two hoots if I come in last. I am going to be okay. I CAN DO THIS. I know I can.  Right? My goal is to run the whole thing. And as far as my time, I just want to finish in less than one hour and 12 minutes. That is my goal. I CAN DO THIS!

I’ll let you all know what happens after the race on Saturday! Until then, send me some good vibes that the race will go just fine. I would surely appreciate it!

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3 thoughts on “A little apprehensive

  1. sounds like you like to please 2 many people!!!! I would love to run but my body says no. I admire what you do. You go girl good luck

  2. Good luck Celeste! I’m sure you will do fine! I know from what I’ve seen in Grand Forks, that if you finish a 10K in 1 hour and 12 minutes, there would be plenty of folks finishing after you. A 10K is a different field, however, because there aren’t all the people walking like you see in the 5K races. Most people can’t run 6 miles, so you are now one of the few who is in good enough shape to even enter the race. Getting to the starting line alone is an accomplishment worthy of congratulations!

  3. Good job, Celeste! (I just checked the results).

    Your post sounded so much like what I thought before my 10K races. I didn’t want to come in last, but I just told myself I was running my own race. I was happy to finish my first 10K (I passed two people) in 1:17. I understand about running in your own town. (My two 10K races were in other towns). I have been finishing near the back. My last race was 1:12 (passed 5-6 people in that one). Again, good job on the 1:05!

    I agree with Jim. In a 5K, one will finish in a higher place, due to the walkers. I think that people that enter a 10K are the “good” runners, and so I’ll finish further back. (except the GF results that I’ve checked look like I would still be back of the pack)

    Oh, well, as long as one is enjoying it. I just (re)started running in May. I’m hoping to (someday) run a 10K in 60 mins.