The lake place

It’s summertime! Although, really, you can’t tell by the weather. Which, on a side note, has made me very crabby…and hungry. Why does the weather play such a big role on my mood, which in turn, plays a HUGE role in how – or what – I eat. AARGH, it’s so frustrating.

Anyway, back to summer. With it comes time spent at the “lake place,” which is my husband’s family’s cabin on beautiful Lake Ida. Because of the weather, we haven’t spent much time there yet this year. Although this weekend, we will hopefully be spending quite a bit of time there – weather permitting!

I don’t know what it is about that place, but it seems to trigger this uncontrollable, have-to-stuff-my-face-full-of-food desire. It’s crazy. I don’t know why, but I CANNOT control my eating while I am there. From the second I walk in the door until I leave, I am non-stop munching and crunching. Doesn’t matter what it is, either. It can be healthy or non-healthy foods, but I just have to eat.

Each time before we go there, I have this “talk” with myself. I try to boost my confidence and tell myself that I can do it. I will have control and restrain myself from overdoing it. But I fail each and every time. And it’s getting a little old. I think I need to try a new tactic, but it may come off as a little rude. You see, the cabin is a small, quaint trailer house that has a kitchen and living room in the main part with three bedrooms and a bathroom at the rear. Guess where everyone gathers? Yep, you got it…in the kitchen.

If there was some way I could just stay out of the kitchen, I think I could do it. By doing that, however, I would either have to spend ALL my time outside or in the living room, which would then take me away from all the food, but it would also take me away from all the people. I wish I could have more control. AND I wish I knew what it is about THAT place that makes me feel this way.

Like I mentioned earlier, we will hopefully be spending much of this weekend at the lake. I am once again going to have the “talk” with myself. I think I will also beg and plead with my husband to help me. He is always so sweet though. I can’t imagine him telling me to, “back away from the food!” Although I would LOVE it if he did. He is probably afraid I will bite his head off, as I have been known to do that from time to time! Nothing gets between me and my food, right? : )

I guess I will try, once again, to take control. If I don’t succeed, I can always go for a walk around the loop – a 3-mile, hilly route that’s sure to help me burn off SOME of the calories!

Happy Fourth of July everyone! May you have the independence to stay on track over this holiday weekend – we can do it, right?

A recipe worth trying

Hello everyone. I know there are many people out there who enjoy a good chicken alfredo. Well, I have made up my own recipe and I thought I would share it with all of you.

Of course, it is healthier than most other alfredos, although it may not be as creamy. Nonetheless, my family loves it, including my somewhat picky teenage son. (Well, he loves it when I don’t put the broccoli in it!)

So, here is the recipe, along with a photo for your viewing pleasure. Hope you enjoy it as much as me and my family! It is one of our favorite suppers!

Celeste’s Chicken Alfredo

  • 1 pound chicken breast, boneless, skinless
  • 8 oz whole-wheat penne pasta
  • 1 cup broccoli, cooked
  • 12 oz can of Miller Lite
  • 4 wedges Laughing Cow light cheese, garlic & herb (cut into small chunks)
  • 2 tbsp reduced-fat parmesan cheese
  • 1 tbsp basil, jarred
  • 1/2 tbsp oregano, jarred
  • 1/2 tbsp garlic (or 1 clove)
  • Salt, to taste
  • Pepper, to taste

1. Cook pasta according to package directions.

2. While pasta is cooking, cut chicken into bite-sized cubes. Spray deep-dish skillet with non-stick cooking spray and sauté chicken, over medium heat, until thoroughly cooked. Sprinkle with salt and pepper to taste. When chicken is almost done, add basil, oregano and garlic and mix well.

3. Then, slowly add the can of beer, turning heat to medium-high. Cook until liquid is reduced by almost half, about 5-6 minutes. Add parmesan and Laughing Cow cheese, stirring until cheese is melted. Then add broccoli and cooked pasta.

4. Stir together, then serve.

Serves: 6

Weight Watchers PointsPlus values per serving: 7

Celeste's chicken alfredo

6.6

I knew I had a reason to be excited to weigh-in on Wednesday. Why? Because I knew I would lose. But I didn’t expect it to be the number it was.

Last week on Wednesday (June 1), I weighed in at 146 pounds, which was almost a 10-pound gain since my first weigh-in in April, which was on April 6. I was at 137.4 .  This Wednesday (June 8), I weighed in at 139.4 – a 6.6 pound loss! YES! SIX POINT SIX POUNDS!!!! I was ecstatic. Almost in tears really.

So, why? What did I change? What did I do?

A couple of things.

For one, I have been drinking lots of Vitamin Zero Water and Sobe Lifewater. Both zero calorie drinks, but unfortunately, that doesn’t equate to 0 PointsPlus values for Weight Waters. I found out that the Vitamin Zero Water has 2 PointsPlus values per bottle and there were times I was drinking two or three per day. And the Sobe Lifewater is worse…or at least for the flavors I was drinking. The pomegranate cherry and the orange tangerine Sobe flavored Lifewaters have 5 PointsPlus values per bottle. FIVE!!!! YIKES!!!! Again, there were times I was drinking two or three a day. You know how fast those points add up! Scary.

Lesson learned. Don’t assume that because something is flavored water and it has zero calories that it is healthy for you. It’s not. Plain and simple.

Lesson learned. ALWAYS. ALWAYS. ALWAYS check the PointsPlus values of every single item. DON’T ASSUME anything.

I also cut back on the all sweets I was eating. May not sound like much, but if you saw the amount of sweets I was eating you would understand.

I also cut back on the amount of sodium I was consuming. Pizza. Chinese take out. Chips. Processed foods. Yep, it all adds up.

It’s amazing how the littlest, simplest things can make such a huge impact. AMAZING!

So, I am back on track and hopefully looking for another loss next Wednesday. My goal is to stick closer to the 136-range. This is where I feel my best. I will let you know next week how I do. In the meantime, have a great weekend! AND watch those points….don’t let them sneak up on you!

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Where have I been?

Hello. So have you been wondering where I’ve been? No need to worry anymore, I’m here. I’m back. Well, at least for today anyway!

What’s been going on, huh? Have you been wondering why there haven’t been any blog posts from me? To be honest, I hope so. I hope you’ve missed me. I’ve missed you. Really, I have.

I suppose you would like some more honesty, huh? Okay, here goes.

I guess I have to admit I’ve been avoiding posting anything because things, well, haven’t been the best lately. Meaning, I started gaining. I am not sure what happened. Well, other than the fact that I kind of lost control for awhile. For some reason or another, I adopted the nope-I-don’t-care-attitude. The nope-I don’t-give-a-rats-behind-attitude.

Not good. Period.

So how much did I gain. Well, let’s take a look at the numbers. You know I have never been shy about that. I have always been honest with my numbers, my weight. So, here ya go. I will start back in April, when things were going pretty good…April 6 – 137.4; April 13 – 139; April 20 – 138.8; April 27 – 142; May 4 – 141.2; May 11 – 139.8; May 18 – 139.6; May 25 – 142; and June 1 (just last week) – 146.

WHAT? 146? YIKES. Since the beginning of April, I have gained 8.6 pounds – that is nearly 10 pounds. TEN!!!! I know, not a big deal, right? Wrong. It is big deal. To me, it is.

So, why? Honestly, there are a couple of different factors. One, the weather. Yes, I blame part of it on the weather. I was getting so pissed off (sorry about the language) because we didn’t really get a spring and I didn’t get to see the sunshine much. It was crappy, cold, wet, miserable and I let it get to me. I let the weather win.

Two, my attitude. Like I said earlier, I developed the I-just-don’t-care-anymore-attitude. I wanted to eat and I didn’t care about what I was eating. I just ate. Plain and simple. I didn’t track. I didn’t do a thing, but eat. Pizza. Cake. Cookies. Chips. Ice cream. Cereal. Waffles. Fast food. Greasy food. Fatty foods. Salty foods. Whatever was “bad” for me, I ate. And I didn’t care a thing about portion sizes. I ate until I was stuffed silly. Miserable, really. Gut ache and all.

Three, my sister. I think the death of my sister finally really hit me. It finally hit me that she is gone. For good. She is dead. I know, it sounds weird – awful, really. But I really think it finally hit home. Hit my heart with a big, ol’, BOOM, POW! I got mad. I got sad. I got angry. I got depressed. I got stupid. I thought food was going to help heal my heart, my sadness, my soul. But I know better than that. It won’t. It didn’t. It made it worse, to be honest.

It seems like everything I have been preaching to my Weight Watchers members, I should have been preaching to myself. I guess the ol’ saying, “Practice what you preach!” really fit perfectly with me.

In all actuality, I kind of felt like a fraud. Yes, a fraud. I know this is stupid, but because I am now a Weight Watchers leader, I feel like I have to be a “PERFECT” role model. Even though I know I don’t have to be. Yes, I have to be a role model, but I don’t have to be a PERFECT one.

In truth, I am still a Weight Watchers member, just like the rest of my members. I have the same struggles and battles as the rest of my members. Even though they may not think so, I do. I am still me on the inside even though the outside of me is different. Does that make sense?

Well, I finally woke up to the madness. I am back on track. I am back to eating healthy – well, for the most part! I have never totally given up any of my favorite foods and I don’t ever have any intention of doing so. But, and this is the biggest BUT of them all…I just don’t eat them all the time. AND, I am back to having control over my portions. If I want something, I have it. Maybe not a ginormous amount of it, but I still have it.

I may have had a temporary setback, but I look at it as feedback, not failure. I am learning from it. I am gaining valuable information. And, I am back to being in control over my food instead of my food having control over me. And that really is key. It’s okay that we have a little misstep once in awhile, but then we have to gain that control back. And I feel like I have.

I actually can’t wait to step on the scale tomorrow morning in front of one of my Weight Watchers co-workers. Yes, I do this every week…no matter what the scale says. Just like my members, I am not only accountable to myself at the scale, I am accountable to someone else! And yep, she has been watching my weight climb, which, again, just like my members, is not a fun thing to happen. I feel like I have disappointed her, as well myself. Even though I KNOW I haven’t disappointed her.

I know I am NEVER, EVER disappointed in any one of my members in the 13 meetings I do each week. They never disappoint me no matter how bad of a week they may have had. Why? Because I have faith in every single one of my members. And I always tell them they need to have a little faith in themselves. Which, I guess I did practice what I preached. I found the faith in myself that I lost for a little awhile. And it sure feels good to have it back.

We ALL struggle from time to time, but it’s how we deal with it that matters. It’s whether or not we decide to get back on that horse and ride or say, forget, it’s not worth it.

I know it is ALWAYS worth it because I am worth it. And so are each and every one of you. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. I certainly appreciate it. And I also appreciate any feedback you want to give. If you feel like sharing your own story, do so. You can submit a comment below or feel free to send me an email – send it to either celbeam@gmail.com or confessionsofaformerfatgirl@gmail.com.

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Thanks and take care!