No joke.

Yes, I am here. I promise. I know I have been somewhat non-existent lately and I apologize. Again. It seems all my postings lately – albeit few and far between – have included apologies. Wow, not so good on my part, huh?

Well, life has gotten busy. Really busy. I have taken on a couple more meetings. I am now up to 13 meetings per week. Whew! It definitely keeps me hopping. But really, who really cares. Right? The more important question is…how I doing on my healthy living journey? That’s what you really want to know, right?

I will tell you. Honestly. Because that is what I do. Right? I have always been honest and forthcoming and I don’t ever plan on changing that. So, if I must be honest, I am struggling. Why? Probably because of a lack of motivation. A lack of time. A lack of energy. A lack of …blah, blah, blah. AND, because I am so friggin’ tired of cold, windy, snowy, cloudy and just plain ol’ yucky weather. I really let this winter get me down and I am not sure why. But honestly, it sucks. Plain and simple.

But here’s the deal. I am still doing well, I haven’t gained, I am eating healthy (for the most part!) and I still feel pretty decent. I am craving exercise and I know I just have to make time for it, but I haven’t found the motivation I once had. Somehow, along the way, I lost it. But not all of it. It’s still there. Somewhere deep inside. I just have to find it again.

On March 19, my husband and I ran our first race of the season – the Get Lucky 7K race in Minneapolis. It, obviously, wasn’t my best run, but I have to tell you, I enjoyed it way more than I expected. Running that race reminded me how much I do actually like to run. Not necessarily love, mind you, but I do actually like it. Prior to that race, I had only ran once since November, so I was incredibly out of shape. But I still did okay. My husband finished in 49:05 and I finished in 51:49. Like I said, not bad, but it could have been oh-so-much-better!

So, after the race, I was really excited to get out and start running again. I was really looking forward to it. And then…STUPID WINTER hit again. Seriously, I have so had enough. ENOUGH! If I could strangle Mother Nature, I probably would. But enough about that. I am not going to stew over the ridiculously cold, snowy and miserable winter we have had to endure this year.

My goal, starting on April 1, is to get outside and run at least three times per week. And I will do it. I will. I have to. I must. I want to. I NEED TO!

So that is that, people. It’s no joke. April 1 is it. Time to get back to it. Time to focus on me again. Time to get in shape and shape up! Enough is enough.

Oh, I also need to mention that I am going to try to keep this blog up better than I have been. My goal is to blog at least once a week. Starting Friday, April 1, my plan is to blog at least once a week – on Fridays. So there, I said it. I told you all. Now I have to, right? Right! Now, you can look forward to hearing from me every Friday. If you want to hear more from me, I post more often on my Confessions of a [former] Fat Girl Facebook site, which you can find here.

Take care my dear readers. And I really do apologize for not keeping this blog as up-to-date as I should. If you feel like sharing any thoughts, tips, concerns or whatever, please feel free to leave a comment or send an email to me at confessionsofaformerfatgirl@gmail.com.

Have a wonderful week!

Shame on me

Dear readers…

First, I will apologize for not posting in what seems like forever. Shame on me. I guess I let life take over and I shouldn’t have. But, I am here. I am posting. And I am filling  you in on what’s going on.

Well, where to start. I guess I will start by saying that my new job as a leader for Weight Watchers is awesome. It is such an honor to be able to try and help those who are just starting out on their healthy living journey or even those who have been on the journey for awhile or even those who are at the same point I am at…struggling to maintain the healthy living lifestyle we worked so hard to achieve.

I am amazed and inspired by my groups. For those of you who don’t know, I recently quit my newspaper reporter job of nearly 12 years to become a full-time leader with Weight Watchers. I now work at 12 meetings per week…three of those I do the reception work, not the leading. I am the leader, however, at nine meetings per week. In case you want to know, here is a look at my schedule:

Mondays: Leader at two meetings – one at an “at work/community” at Central MN Credit Union in Melrose and one at what we call a “trad” meeting, meaning traditional, at the Senior Center in Sauk Centre. An “at work” is where I go to the business and hold a meeting for employees. Most at works now are called at work/community meetings because the meeting is open to employees as well as people in the community.

Tuesdays: Leader at three meetings – one at an at work/community at Broadway Medical Center; one at an at work at the U of M in Morris; and one at a trad meeting at the library in Morris.

Wednesdays: Receptionist at three trad meetings in Alexandria at the Senior Center and leader at one meeting – an at work/community in Wheaton.

Thursdays: Leader at three meetings – one at an at work at Encore Capital Group in St. Cloud; one at an at work at Wolters Kluwer in St. Cloud; and one at a trad meeting in Glenwood at the hospital.

Fridays: I was supposed to have Fridays off, but I am temporarily helping out in St. Cloud. I am now the leader for the Friday meeting at the center, which is literally its own center with a sign out front and everything. Kind of cool.

So, yes, I am a tad busy, but man, I am SO loving it. It is such an invigorating, inspiring, motivating and empowering job. Especially when I have members who no longer have to take medication for high blood pressure or medication for high cholesterol or members who don’t have to take as much medication for their diabetes. Or the members who didn’t think exercise was a possibility and now, they are running races. It’s amazing what this job does for a person’s heart and soul.

However, I think it is time for me to take my own advice. I need to put into practice what I am preaching. I have to admit, I have been struggling…a little. Not a lot. My eating has faltered on occasion and the exercise…well, it’s been next to nothing. My husband made me go out and run with him on Saturday and man, oh, man did that feel good. It was the best run I’ve ever had, but I did it and it felt great. Until the next day, anyway. My legs were killing me. But it felt good to feel that pain again. It’s not a “real” pain, it’s that oh-my-goodness-I-actually-worked-out pain. It truly was awesome.

So, as winter is winding down (or at least it dang well better be), I am looking forward to a wonderful spring and summer season filled with as many races as last year (eight 5K’s and one 10K), if not more. The season is starting out pretty good as we – my husband and I – are already registered for three races: a 7K run on March 19; a 5K run on May 13; and a 5K run on May 20. We are also doing the Susan G. Komen 5K walk on Mother’s Day with family and friends in memory of my sister, Donna, who passed away from breast cancer on January 31 of this year.

So, are running schedule is filling up and I can’t wait! If you have any races planned in your future, let me know about them. Either send me an email to confessionsofaformerfatgirl@gmail.com or post it on my Confessions of a [former] Fat Girl Facebook site. You can click here to do that. Thanks much!