The other day I received an email from a reader and it really hit home. I am not exactly sure why, but something about it just grabbed a hold of my heart. I felt a lot of empathy toward the writer and after I emailed her back, I sent her another email and asked if I could share her email, along with my response with the rest of my readers. She immediately said yes and said I could even use her name.
So, the following is the email I received from Rhonda T. and also my response:
Hi Celeste, I just discovered your blog, and I think you may have become my friend. (I hope youâ€™re OK with that).
If I had a blog, it would be titled â€œConfessions of a Former Fit Girlâ€ – Iâ€™ve gained about 50 pounds over the last year or so. I could tell you all the boring-yet-I-would-somehow-make-them-dramatic details, but from reading your blog, I know that you know all it comes down to is that I quit exercising and started eating. (Eating a lot, and all the wrong things.)
I actually dished out the $500 (plus the cost of the â€œmeal replacementsâ€) to start up the Opti Fast thing here in Fargo – the doctors were nice and the nutritionist was smart, but after dropping the first 10 pounds or so, I just lost momentum. I realize now that it was a far too passive way of losing weight for me. When youâ€™re on that program you are actually told NOT to exercise, as the calorie intake is so low. Now, since Iâ€™ve been sitting on my behind for the last 2 years, youâ€™d think being told not to work out would be right up my alley, but sipping on five little boxes throughout the day and doing nothing else became impossible for me to maintain.
I feel like Iâ€™m eating my way into the kind of life I donâ€™t want to have – not for me, and most definitely not for my 3 boys. Iâ€™m tired when I need to be engaging my kids, and Iâ€™m cranky when I need to be calm and patient. Iâ€™m still at home with two of the boys (4 year old twins), and not having any contact with the â€œoutsideâ€ world has done nothing but add to my loss of ……what?……me?
Remember Jabba the Hut from Star Wars? He was this huge disgusting blob of ugliness that couldnâ€™t even move. Thatâ€™s what I feel like, only Iâ€™d be called Rhonda the Mommy.
Well, I promised no boring details, yet somehow this has become too long anyway. Sorry. I donâ€™t really know what I want or am hoping for when (or even if) you answer this. All I can say is that when I read your blog, for the first time in a long time, I didnâ€™t feel so alone. And maybe Iâ€™m just sending you this to say thanks.
This is my response:
Hi Rhonda…First off, thank you so much for your email. Believe it or not, you actually just inspired me. I havenâ€™t exercised in about a week and I feel exactly how you just described yourself. Although I havenâ€™t gained any weight back – yet – I still feel miserable. So, as soon as I am done typing this email back to you, I am heading out the door and hitting the pavement!
When you have young kids at home, it is hard to take the time to focus on ourselves, but we HAVE to do it. If not for ourselves, for them. Think of the role model you can be for them if you take the time to exercise and EAT right. As you know, I am huge advocate of Weight Watchers. The reason? The program teaches you to eat right, not some boxed meals that are already prepared for you, but real food. Prepared by you. It teaches you that itâ€™s okay to have those little treats…AND it teaches you about exercise and that you HAVE TO incorporate it in order to become healthy.
I donâ€™t want to preach at you because from what I read, you donâ€™t need that. YOU know what you need to do in order to get back to the FIT you. But, you just donâ€™t have the motivation. I have been there. I have done that. We all have. But you have to dig inside yourself and remember the you that you loved and felt good about. YOU need to do it for you. Not for anyone else. Because when you do it for you, YOU WILL be doing it for everyone else because they will reap the benefits. I know that sounds weird, but it is so true. When I am feeling good about myself, I am happier and less likely to snap at my son. When I am crabby and feeling like crap, I tend to take it out on him, like itâ€™s his fault or something. Luckily, heâ€™s almost 17 and has learned to just blow me off.
Rhonda, take a look at yourself. Dig deep inside and find what you need to become the person YOU want to be. Find that happiness again. Find that person you love. Find YOU. Have the faith in yourself that the people around you probably have in you. Donâ€™t go on a â€œDIETâ€ – Begin the lifestyle journey that will make you a healthier, happier you. YOU CAN DO IT. You know you can and even though I donâ€™t know you, from what I read, I KNOW YOU CAN.
Please keep me update in your journey. The time to start is now. Do it. You want to. You need to. YOU CAN!!!!!
Confessions of a [Former] Fat Girl
NOTE: As promised, when I got done with my response to Rhonda, I went for a run. The first one in a week. And even though I had to walk a couple of times, I made it 6.22 miles and I burned 696 calories! This is my longest run to date. I am gearing up for my first 10K, which is in Fargo on October 9. Both my husband and I going to do run it and I am so excited. Our second wedding anniversary is on October 8 so we thought what better way to celebrate than to run a 10K!